For many reasons I have been celebrating a personal holiday
every year on October 17th. When it lands on a Thursday it extra
special. There is a feeling in October that you are in the company of a very
dear friend, and you both know for whatever reason you will not see each other
in a very long time. So the feeling is a calm presence, yet very strong, and
tinged with a bit of sadness.
This year I spent my three days off leading to the 17th
in a nice way. On Tuesday I drove to the beach with my Mother and Sister. Every
millisecond was visual overload of psychedelic beauty, like gold and red
flowing into your eyes at 60 miles per hour. There were quiet times when my
sister read her textbooks in the back, and my mother and myself simply were
conduits of yellows, reds, purples, and light flashing off forest streams
alongside the highway. At the ocean we could see for miles on the empty sands,
and I could let Lola off her leash safely to run her full strength with that simple
joy that dogs have.
The next night I went with my dear Friend/Twin to see the
premier of a documentary on The Satyricon, a punk club in Portland that had a
run of nearly 30 years. It was an emotional night for many reasons. The first
was that this was the first time I had gone to see a feature in a theater since
coming back to the US, and it made me miss my Berlin friends quite a bit. It
was intense to see thirty years later so many faces from a youth that set
standards for the rest of my life in what friendship means, and also to see
what both time and hard living has done to many of us. Indeed, many did not
make it to 2013. The film, Satyricon, Madness and Glory was a success for a few
important reasons. One was it showed clearly how a nightclub is more than a
place where people listen to loud punk and experimental music, score heroin or
coke in the bathroom, or breakup with a bad lover, but a nightclub can also be
a political work of art. This film showed us as a politically minded
generation, and the owner of the club as an artist. The film had nice many
performances that had me very much missing playing music live, but more
importantly it also showed the violent side of gentrification in a section on
the bombing of that block by a few would be developers, and police intimidation
in a section on an alleged riot started at the club when police roughed up the
owner. Afterwords I went with a group of folks to The Matador and oh did we
conjure the old days, ending in an impromptu dance in what was by no means a
dance bar. God, it was a night to love life.
Lastly, today, the 17th, I went for a nice long
walk at a nearby marsh with a dear friend. Tonight I cook dinner listening to
music made by my friends Cheryl E. Leonard and Jim Campbell. Cheryls compositions
are as if nature came alive and started playing weird and lovely songs, and
Jim’s are like all the flotsam and jetsam and debris from our overworked,
beaten world had started vibrating, pulsing, shaking and humming.
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